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Wednesday, March 07, 2007

Last Surrender

 In the solitude of her room – or what seemed so, she sealed the end of a grueling day by removing her attire to replace it with something of more comfort. As each article of clothing left her body, she failed to feel as if she were alone. And soon she stood in the bare, completely exposed, but exposed to eyes beyond her own – she was so sure. She felt her cold hands tremble as they pulled upon her small frame, a sleek black nightgown that fell down to her thighs. She moved towards her dresser, and tied her lush hair loosely behind her head. Beads of sweat formed at her hairline and her hands remained frozen.

She knew who it was.

She always knew who it was.

Every day.

She stumbled, catching herself with her palms against her bureau. She felt dizzy, sick, and clammy. She knew exactly what to do.

Running to her window, she slammed down on the lock above it.

One down. Sixteen to go.

Soon there were fourteen.

Ten.

Six.

Three.

None.

Or so she calculated.

Onto her doors – front and back, both bolted.

Three places on the back door.

Four on the front.

She closed her eyes and let herself sink into the comfort of her bedroom.

Peace at last.

Or so it was meant to seem?

Crash.

She sat up immediately. Thunder? No, it was clear outside. The furnace? It came from her second floor. The furnace wasn’t there. She was running out of ideas to soothe her mind. The attic. The only room she failed to—

It wasn’t long before she had to face the truth.

Thump, thump, thump.

Stairs.

She rose to her feet immediately, and like a wildcat, she savagely ran to her door.

Slam.

Her bedroom door hadn’t a lock.

She forced all of her body weight against it.

The bureau was fear too heavy for her to push in front of it now. She was running out of options.

She could have exited through her window …

If only she hadn’t locked it.

It came closer. With every footstep, her heart raced faster.

Bang.

On the other side of the door.

She grew numb.

Bang.

She swallowed.

Bang!
Why had she fallen careless tonight?

Her body weight wasn’t enough to force against the door.

It swung open with a mighty power, and she fell against her cold, wood floor.

 

“There’s nowhere to run, so let’s just get it over with.”

 


Saturday, February 17, 2007

The Foreign Exchange Student

Terror streams into her darkened eyes and all hairs stand on end. She clutches her books against her chest to muffle the sound of her pounding heart – in case anyone was to hear. Her fingers tremble and her legs grow weak with each and every step she took. She was five foot one, but she felt one foot five. Every area of her exposed skin seemed to stand out, as if her skin was like a reptiles.  Others around her pushed and shoved past her carelessly, murmuring incomprehensibly. It was incomprehensible to her, at least. She didn't speak that language. This wasn't her country. This wasn't her home ...

            Clash! She collides into somebody, who came running towards her. She fell to the ground and her books lay scattered across the floor. They keep running. Her heartbeat is no longer muffled – it is exposed to all. They step on her belongings and step over her. More murmuring. Becoming louder. Laughter. At her? No, of course not. Within each other. Nobody knows her anyway. Seen her around perhaps, and knows she isn't of their country. She is from somewhere far overseas, unfamiliar. Nobody stopped to help her because nobody understands her cries for help. They're in a foreign language. She gathers her books and rises to her feet, and slowly the halls clear. She sighs quietly, setting a strand of hair behind her ear that had fallen out of place, and continues walking to her next period class. Ring. She's late.

            Walking into her class, all attention is focused toward her. Her stomach twists and turns, and her heart grows sick. "Late again," the teacher sighs. "Roaming the halls with some friends, I assume. Take a seat."

She walks slowly and quietly into her desk, which is at the back of the room. "If only that were true …" she cries beneath a whisper, her voice lost beneath an ocean of ignorance.

This is just a taste of a day in the life of a foreign exchange student.


Wednesday, January 10, 2007

The Ballroom

“You look simply stunning this evening.”

            A hot red blush rushed to Lisette’s cheeks as the curtseyed politely and kept her gaze to the ground. “You as well, milord.”

            He flashed her a smile; her heart fluttered. The young man then departed.

            Lisette took a seat in one of the rows of chairs against the wall where many other striking young women sat, waiting for a handsome young man to take their hand in a dance. Of course it was inevitable that one would, because their beauty assured them of almost anything. Most of them had either piercing sapphire or emerald eyes that shone throughout the ballroom. They sported beautiful hairstyles that couldn’t have been done elsewhere but professionally and not short of several hours would they take to prepare. They wore stunning gowns with sequins unimaginable that were likely customized and cost more than Lisette was even worth. Their jewelry was stunning, all diamonds, pears, gold, silver, opals, rubies, sapphires, crystals, emeralds and everything else imaginable.

            Conversely, Lisette wore a simple, slim, black dress with ridges along the bottom hem and her hair was as plain as plain could be and rested on her shoulders as flat as if an iron had soared across it. Her eyes did not shine with any unique colour, for it was just brown. She wore no jewelry, for she couldn’t afford any. She felt so incredibly out of place, like a rock among a mine of jewels. She was invited only under the condition of chaperoning her distant cousin, for the only reason that her cousin would look more gorgeous than she already was in comparison to plain Lisette.

            Immediately, Lisette began to regret ever coming. The beautiful women that once surrounded her, one by one began to disappear because they were being asked to dance by handsome men. Lisette stayed seated, feeling entirely ill at ease and embarrassed. Her eyes searched the room and her gaze settled on the kind gentleman she had spoken to earlier. It looked like he was looking for someone. A spark set aglow within Lisette’s heart, a spark of hope that he was looking for her. One part of her mind was convinced that it was a foolish thing to hope for. Just because he was the only one that complimented her, much less noticed her since she arrived, didn’t mean that he was necessarily head over heels for her. Yet, her hopeless romantic heart got the best of her.

            She fixed her eyes on him as he continued to search the crowd of couples dancing. With all her might, she wished his glance would come her way. He turned around and his eyes set on a blonde in a light blue gown with her hair styled like the others. As their eyes met, chemistry was definitely not absent. She curtseyed at him and he gently kissed her hand. They began to dance in tune with the music.

            Like an aircraft that had just been shot down, Lisette’s heart sank.

            Suddenly her despair turned to anger, first at the blonde, and then at him, but that only lasted a few moments, for her true anger only settled on herself. Why can’t I be like her? She thought. Why do I have to be so plain? So tasteless? Why can’t I be beautiful and elegant like her? Her despair grew and a sickly feeling grew within her stomach. Lisette’s chestnut eyes filled with tears of despair until the scene of all the dancing people became blurred. She did not notice that she was the only one left sitting on the sides. She felt the need to leave, immediately. She stood up and held in her tears with as much strength as she could as she ran out of the ballroom as hastily as possible.

            Once she stepped outside, she remembered that her cousin’s limousine was her only chance of leaving, and he wouldn’t be coming until she called—which probably wouldn’t be anytime soon. Instead, Lisette sat down on the steps. She held her head in her hands and sobbed. She sobbed because she had gotten her hopes up much too high, once again. In actuality, she was angriest with herself for being so upset over such a thing. It seemed so out of her control, though. She couldn’t stop crying if she tried.

            After a while, Lisette wasn’t quite sure of how long she had been out there, she noticed someone sitting next to her. Her eyes were so blurred by the tears, and her face so twisted with desolation, she felt ashamed to look at anyone and therefore kept her face hidden in her hands. She felt so numb both inside and out, she wasn’t sure how to react. It was probably a complete stranger who was on their way into the ballroom and stopped to make sure she was well out of sympathy. She wiped away the tears from her eyes and glanced to the stranger next to her—it was the gentleman who had spoken to her earlier, the same one who she was crying over right now.

            “Such a pretty girl as you shouldn’t be crying such tears of despair,” he said to her.

            “Why do you say such things?” she asked.

            “I only speak of the truth.”

            “Why speak of such false truth? There’s no need to console me out of pity, you know just as I do that I am as plain a simple stone compared to the women in that ballroom.”

            “I’m not sure what you’re talking about! Those women inside—they all look the same! Expensive gowns of velvet and who knows what else, that excessive hairstyle that is seen far too often, and jewels one too many, why compare yourself to them?”

            “Have you not noticed? All of the gentlemen adore such beauties! They ask them to dance, and flatter them each and every day.”

            “But those men have only one thing in mind.”

            “I beg your pardon?”

            “They find no interest in a woman’s character, but only in her body.”

            “And I suppose you find interest in a woman’s character?”

            “Absolutely.”

            “And you had not a thought of that woman’s body who you were dancing with earlier?”

            “Who? Giselle? I promised her a dance; she’s a daughter of nobility. I’ve no personal interest in her, I assure you.”

            “How am I to know you’re not just insincere?”

            “Shall I prove it to you with a dance?”

            “Would you not be ashamed?”

            “Ashamed? For what! The others should envy me.”

            “Envy?”

            “How many men have the opportunity to dance with a woman with such unique beauty as yourself?”

            Her cheeks grew warm. “My name is Lisette.”

            “Enchanting to meet you, milady. You may call me Olivier. May I have this dance?” He asked, holding out his hand.

            “You may,” she replied, giving him her hand. He led her back into the ballroom.

            That day, Olivier taught Lisette an important lesson. Those who may be beautiful on the outside often lack persona. Beauty is in the eye of the beholder. And that day in Lisette’s life, she felt beautiful, no longer a stone among the jewels. But she wasn’t just any jewel. She was his jewel.


Monday, January 08, 2007

A Beautiful Commencement

            Her hands quivered with icy determination as she drew her ebony-colored skirt up around her waist. She smoothed down her black and white striped sweater and stared into the mirror. Her dark hair fell in disheveled curls upon her shoulders. Her dark pearl eyes shone with diffidence as she debated within her mind an appropriate conclusion. She had a promise to keep tonight. Not a promise to anyone else, but to herself.

            She let out a cry of discontentment and quickly covered her mouth with her left hand. She couldn’t afford to wake anyone from his or her slumber. Tonight was the only night. There were no other chances, no other opportunities. Beads of perspiration formed on her clammy hands as she assembled her suitcase with only necessities. A few changes of clothes, a pair of shoes, her jewelry box, and a few books was all she could afford to take. In her small black purse was some money she had been saving up, a hairbrush, and some barrettes.

            Once making sure everything was in place, including the note she had written to assure her parents of her safety, and her lights were dim, she at last decided it was time to leave. She opened her window and a cool breeze blew in, gently blowing her curtains. Feeling a sudden rush of adrenaline shoot through her veins, she realized what she was about to do. Her hesitancy melted away like an ice cube on a warm summer day. Willpower and fortitude took over. She carefully tossed her suitcase out of her window. It landed softly on the grass with not much more than a thud. She put her purse around herself and vigilantly climbed out of the window, carelessly leaving it open behind her. Looking down, there was not much distance between her window and the ground, but she couldn’t afford to jump. There was no time for needless injuries.

            Clutching the side of her house with both hands, and steadying herself with her feet as well, she reached out her arm to the left and grabbed onto wooden arrangement that was used for growing vines. Soundlessly she climbed down. She closed her eyes and held her breath as she took the last step that would lead her to the ground. A wave of relief washed over her as she felt grass between her toes. She was almost there.

            Quietly, she picked her suitcase up and hurried to the destination where they were to meet. Though it was nearby, the path there seemed so much longer in the dark. They were headed to an old train station that was scarcely known. Soon it came into view and there she spotted the one who had been waiting for, the one who she was ready to spend the rest of her life with. She dashed towards him once dropping her suitcase and threw her arms around him. They shared a kiss filled with passion and look into one another’s’ eyes.

Night had long ago befallen and the moon cast its shadow upon the lovers. “We leave tonight,” the taller one spoke below a whisper.

She bit her lip and took his hand in her own. Her breathing ceased fretfully. “What if they come after us?” she inquired softly.

He tightened his grasp on her hand. “They’ll never find us,” he fearlessly reassured her. Taking notice of her troubled expression, he frowned. “Are you certain you want to do this?”

“I’ve never been this certain.” She smiled and her gaze met his.

He returned to her a smile. “The train will arrive soon.”

She felt contentment wash over her.  The thought of at last living free was near irresistible. The entire horizon would be theirs. She looked up to the sky, which was twisted with an eternity of stars. That eternity of stars was their future.

“I love you,” he whispered softly in her ear.

“I love you too,” she replied, passion dripping from her every word.

“Once we arrive to Paris … the world will be ours.”

“The world is already ours.”

In the distance, the rattling of the train against the tracks sang salvation through the air. It was their last chance … their last opportunity. It was now or never. She picked up her suitcase and took her lover’s hand.

“This life hasn’t been kind to us,” he said. “I am glad to bid it farewell and spend the rest of mine with no other but you.”

Warmth set aglow within her heart as she remembered the many days she had done nothing more but dream of this moment.

The train came to a halt before them and the doors opened.

Exchanging one last glance, they boarded the train, never letting go of one another.

Their future had begun. And what a beautiful commencement it was.